I haven't written a blogpost for the longest time and I'm not sure if I can or know what to say.
This blog, as I repeatedly read through the archives, reminds me of how hopeful I get when I'm in love. Most of the posts were written with such intense love and I remember those moments; I was usually so overwhelmed by this feeling of being blessed to know a beautiful soul and I needed to put those feelings into writing. And I did just that. Again and again.
Therefore, know that it fills me with disgust that I could have ever felt that strongly for a liar and a cheater. I'm ashamed to have poured my utmost effort in a false relationship. It was a terribly drawn out lie.
But I will always stand amazed at how things unravel and gets revealed like candy from a burst pinata.
Yes. I was blind for some time, beating away insecurities and nagging feelings when I hit the only colourful culprit who has been keeping secret side candies.
I'm over him but one can never get over betrayal. No. I keep that in my mind every time I meet someone new.
On a much much happier note, I am currently pursuing my PhD in Anthropology here in Australia. I've had to learn a lot of new social theories and am on unfamiliar grounds but infinitely feeling happier and more confident than before.
God's plans are always great. Alhamdulillah. :)
Hopefully, by publishing this post, I can somehow carry this blog onwards. I have no love to write about but then love is not the only act in life and I might have some other tricks up my sleeve. ;)